Sometimes

Sometimes I feel like I should do it all,

But I feel like doing nothing.

Sometimes I want to spill all my secrets,

But I stay quiet.

Sometimes I want to state my boundaries,

But I'm afraid of being too harsh.

Sometimes I want to state the facts,

But I know that I'll f*ck it up.

Sometimes I want to love everything that I have,

But I know I don't deserve it.

Sometimes I want to live my life to the fullest,

But I want to die.

Sometimes I think 'What if there is no "but" to my "sometimes"?'

But I know there is.